Bullied at a Large Super Market and My Health Has Suffered
(Bedfordshire, England)
Depression, anixety, weight loss, insomnia, is just some of how I'm feeling after being bullied. It started over a year ago, I got a job in a large store which I was really enjoying.
I had always been a confident person, on the outside anyway. On the inside I struggle with self esteem and worry. Im a single parent and have been for many years. I struggle with my kids as there 18 and 16 and walk all over me. Im told im a door mat in everyones eyes, but there right. Ive always been a happy bubberly person tho, but have always had trouble making friends with women as they just seem to take an instant dislike to me.
Like in alot of stores you get (the group) popular with everyone.
I never wanted to get into that crowd, and did speak to them at the start. Within a few months I was being laughed at, sniggers, evil looks etc. I kept my head down and didnt say anything.
Christmas eve was the worst ever...
The sniggers and that had stopped about a week before xmas, and some of the group was starting to talk to me. Kept asking me to go to the pub with them for a drink xmas eve. Like a fool I really thought they wanted to be friends and was genuine.
Going for that drink was the worst thing I could do and its ruined my life.
I turned up at the pub xmas eve there was all the (group) there Including a manager that has a reputation of sleeping with all the (group) and not forgetting all there friends, so there was alot there that night.
Within minutes I relised I'd made a big mistake going not one person spoke to me even tho I tried. The looks had started and the sniggering, whispering but I dint have the bulls just to get up and walk out, I couldnt do it cause I didnt want to look stupid.
I rang my daughter to come up with her boyfriend to the pub to give me support, which they did.
I had been in the pub about 2 hours with no one talking to me and the sniggers, in the end I told my daughter and boyfriend we was going.
They walked out the pub and as I was just about to walk thro the doors when the group had come after me.
That night I suffered humiliation, shouting and laughing close to my face then I was beaten up. My daughter and her boyfriend being held while watching me get beaten. I will never forget that night and neither will my daughter.
Xmas day was ruined my daughter in tears and me black and blue sobbing. I didnt go to the police, I was to scared I had to work with these people and just wanted it all to be over.
I wasnt due back to work until January, I thought things would calm down by the time I went back.
It hadnt tho and when I went to work everyone new wot had happened and was laughing at me. In the canteen at break times I'd be sitting on my own while the rest was in groups looking over at me and at me talking and laughing. Even some of the managers was joining in.
I didnt do anything at first but then went and spoke to a senior manager and told him everything.
It made it worse for me... I have now been off work since end of January, suffered a nervious break down, big weight loss, I'm on sleeping pills and antidepressants. Ive had couselling, which helped me.
I have had no support from my work with this either and my kids have really suffered to.
Im hoping I can find another job so I can get out, but as things are its very hard at min. I cant go back to the store to work I'm to scared now, even tho I'm on the mend my life has changed for the worse and I dont speak to anyone now unless its my kids or family and im scared to leave the house.
Later today I will have to tho as I've been called for a formal meeting with my bosses, and I'm terrified. If any bullies are reading any of these letters, just see how much you destroy lives with wot you do...
