Why I Don't Believe In God And The American Educational System
(Finland Helsinki )
The first time I was bullied, was in elementary school. I was bullied because I was overweight and not very athletic, because I have difficulties losing weight.
Next by the time I was in middle school I was an atheist, because I found it difficult to believe the story's and I was bullied at church and I was starting to struggle with Christianity. Because I highly respect homosexuals and female rights, I also was HIGHLY scientifically smart. This also brings up another topic I was horrible at math... another reason I was bullied.
When I was in middle school I had social anxiety (which I still have even now) and agliophobia (the fear of pain). I got this fear from almost drowning earlier in my life AND inner rage issues from almost drowning so I was always unhappy and I absolutely could NOT find joy in my life, also from my inner rage issues I would often picture people like my bullies and teachers just being eviscerated.
MANY people bullied me just for being an atheist and I didn't have any real friends except for 3 people. 2 of them where in middle school with me, the other was my best friend that I met in preschool. Anyway back to the topic I was often too afraid to hit or speak up against my bullies, and this lead to low self esteem so I'd often cry A LOT and because of this I was bullied even more.
I've tried suicide three times. First: I tried to hang myself but failed putting me into depression
Second: I tried to hanging myself a second time a few months later and ALMOST succeeded
Third: A year later in eight grade I tried to slit my wrist with my pocket knife and almost bled to death in the hospital...
Now to part why I hate the American "Educational" System.
They don't actually teach you anything about society. They're just like "Here's a test make sure not to write outside of the bubble A B C D and E or on the scantron." They don't teach you that "homosexuality is NOT a bad thing" and etc. A another DUMB thing is that every time an atheist or a agnostic puts up a poster Christians play the "victim card." Where they're apparently the "victim" when really the atheist and agnostics are the victims. And public bulling of atheist (Fox news for an example, here's a quote "I'm tired of them atheist!") P.S If you watch the Fox "news" for "news" your being lied too.
LINKS FOR ANXIETY'S AND PHOBIAS I LISTED: http://healthmad.com/mental-health/dealing-with-inner-rage/
VIDEO LINKS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=toEHs9aKF5w
ATHEIST YOUTUBERS (The good ones) : http://www.youtube.com/user/MrRepzion?feature=watch
NOTES: Please excuse my grammar and spelling because it has been a while since I've been to america and I speak and write mostly Finnish or Swedish now.