Teacher's Assistant Targeted by Bullies Asks "Why Me?"
I wonder if anyone out there can help me, I started work a few months ago in a school as a teaching assistant although I have done this work in another school, that closed for ten years.
I have tried to become part of the group but they make it clear that they do not want me there, they are all chatting together but when I appear the talking stops, I turned around on Friday to find one of them standing behind me gesturing about me and mouthing to six others in the group, I was so upset I never went back Friday afternoon. I called in to work to say I was sick three hours later my manager called to see why I was not in. I was still very upset on the phone. When I got home I was throwing up and having like a bad panic attack, I felt like I could not breath.
There has been many incidents like this since I started there a few months ago. I really don't understand why they do not like me, and why they are doing this. I am a single parent so really need to be able to go in to work on Monday but have no idea how I am going to to be able to do it, as I feel such a fool blubbering on the phone to my manager. I feel so weak and pathetic and wish I had not said anything at all. Even now I still feel so unwell and nauseous.
The only thing my manager said was that some people can be intimidated by intelligence and this is not right, and I expect to see you in work on Monday morning, after I had been there a few weeks I was requested by the head of school to support an intensive computer course that was going on in the school after this happened it got worse. I do not know why. I am always say good morning to everyone when I arrive and ask how everyone is etc, I can not believe how awful this is making me feel.
Any advice would be gratefully received.